Tuesday, June 16, 2009

And then there were none

The book said Orandas were difficult to keep. The book was right. The two remaining fish, Beaker, the little redcap in the background, and Coco, the one with the solo portrait, developed a raging parasitic infection. They were clearly suffering, so I euthanized them this afternoon. I am done with fish, at least for now. I'll empty and sanitize the tank, put it in the garage, and take some time to think about whether to try again, or to make a terrarium (plants only) or to donate the tank. They're buried in the garden, with the other 3 fish, among the ornamental plants. Marked by a shell. Yes, I know they were freshwater fish, but I don't care. I like the shell, I loved the fish. I don't know how many animals I euthanized in my 7 years working in an animal shelter. But today, right now, I feel the weight of them all.




5 comments:

Bree said...

I'm sorry, Kate. The loss of a pet is the loss of a friend. Take time to feel your grief, let it wash over you, and then release it to the universe. Hurt is the risk we take when we love. Take care, friend.

ginger said...

oh, so sad....i'm sorry kate.

everytime i get a pet i always say it's my last one because i don't like the grieving. then i realize that i would miss out on all of the joy and love they bring me. that doesn't make it easier though.

i'm glad i got to meet the little one last weekend before he got sick.

Jenn said...

Oh Kate this just sucks. I am so, so very sorry to hear about Coco and Beaker :( There are never the right words to say, just take your time and do what is right for you ♥love♥

Laura said...

Your dear companions will be missed. I am so sorry to know about the others troubling you. You are loved. You are supported.

Bridgete said...

I'm so sorry. I've lost my fair share of pets, and it never gets easier. *hugs*